Worth It?

With all of the stressful things going on in my life lately, I've been pretty depressed on a regular basis. Yesterday was especially bad. I hadn't been that suicidal in a long time and it scared me. It was like the past four years of relatively slow progress (but still progress!) were erased. That was the truly scary part. I felt completely hopeless and like life wasn't worth living. My husband was so sweet during all of this and helped me get back to a rational place. After I was sufficiently calmed down, he asked me if I really thought being alive was worth it with all of the physical and mental pain I deal with regularly. I answered honestly: yes it is. I've fought hard to get here. I've fought against myself to live for the better part of six years. Even though life is frequently still difficult and tries to drag me down, you bet it's worth it. I've earned it. I've earned being alive. No matter how depressed I get, life is worth it.